I just don't think I can live in a place that embraces and nurtures apathy as if it was a virtue.

Well..my sister furthered her awesomeness by probably losing her job...and by probably I mean, they demoted her and gave her 30 days to get zero complaints...which I assure you with her award wining demeanor..will be impossible.

I must have hope, cross my fingers, and other appendages.

However, if she does, this puts everything with my mom in jeopardy..the house etc...the only solution if this happens is either kicking my sister out and my mom really trying to micromanage what she does have until the house sells or me, hoping she can make it to May, drop out of school...and go back to a full time position, somewhere, until the house goes.

Either option sucks rather hardcore...but one things for certain my sister's lack of ability to do anything she says she will be accountable for, is finally reached its height...and dropped like it was the stock market in 1929, or say most of January this year.

My mom is in such a deep state of depression her body is shutting down. All her joints are sore...she feels all pain..and can barely do anything for herself...it's like watching someone trying to live grasping at nothing, and slowly dying from fear and disappointment in herself..it's I think worse than watching anything my dad went through before he died.

I wish I had answers. I hoped this year would be better..I fight it too, but I guess I have to really try to figure out a way to fight for her.