1 post tagged “school”

March..well almost April now..I neglected this venting device, not intentionally, just had that month where life took me on, instead of me taking life on..but I digress, it was totally worth it.

My mom finally visited. We had a total blast...the first time since my dad died...there were so low moments she still get upset, but I think the fog is clearing and she's slowly, hesitantly making her way.

I went to California for the PCA conference and presented a paper on comic books, well Batgirl to be exact..Not only is it getting published in some fancy academic journal but also a reader this Fall..that means a small amount of money, I'll be frank really small, but that also means a book you can buy in a store will have something I wrote in it...How about that? In your face, craptastic life!

Nextly, I say nextly because it's a blog and I want to make more words up...but my friend Adam visited..this 8 months in the making reunion, coincided with me getting laryngitis, but I can speak again, and did in fact, go to the bar and drink without a voice..probably not a wise decision but alas, I did it, with bells on.

I still get mopey over all things 'ex', but it's set in. We had our final throw down, or talk..really wasn't that bad, but didn't give me much peace...still confused on how he is getting married less than a year after he asked me to marry him, but I guess he thinks he has a good thing, hope he does what he can to not mess it up, like mine and others before.

Set in is a fancy masked phrase...all things considered, for the lack of a better term, my mojo is pretty nonexistent...I freak when guys talk to me. I went on one hall of fame winning bad date and I think this is the longest I've gone without kissing someone...2 months...that makes me sound like a ho, but I like the term codependent, much better.

I have some goals to achieve..like a job, grown up one to be exact...I need to stop sitting in this cell of an apartment and get out and live instead of watching the world live without me. I also need to not worry about things that I CANNOT control and focus on the things in front of me I'm neglecting, like school.

I'm not really neglecting it either, just half assing it more than is accustomed for my 'style' of educational endeavors.

I want to fully work on understanding who I am, I know it's fluid, but this face I see in the mirror doesn't coincide with who I think I am...meaning I don't feel I fit my skin and I'm really yearning to bring those two together.